You Know What I Hate

the very existence.
the very existence of me captivated in a void, in a nothingness, surrounded by these material beings
lifeless as it seems, but these are what i interact with for a glimpse of you.
the futility of existence
of giving hope, the dream, the vision of what is to be
only to have it all crashing down like a castle made of glass
shattered and broken with a single crack.
The hope of heaven on earth, the clairvoyance of you and me walking hand in hand forever and ever
the eternity of being larger than this universe even though we are a trivial being living within it,
only to realise it was a constructed memory based upon the blind sighted affection and gratitude
and the very existence of remaining time, consumed by emptiness, is to deconstruct the same memory
while living through it every day -physically and virtually.
Deconstruction, the dismantle of the memory is the most agonizing and very much hated.

The worthless anticipation
the known probability is next to zero or even negative yet the heart hangs by the skin for the possibility of what might be
in this infinite universe.
Its so pathetic, the passing of time, the ticking of clock and yet the anticipation never disappears
rather the anxiety grows larger and larger pushing the button for this urge to make a first move, or a millionth one.
A mistake, may it be, the anxious anticipation
this uncontrollable desire
but you were a shot of dopamine and we both knew it.

you know what i hate, the knowledge of nonexistent.
The knowledge of nonexistent
is a frightening thought as at one point
we were a singularity and we big banged into our own creation
our own universe, revolving around each other
until you destroyed me completely
you destroyed me completely and mercilessly
engulfing the very existence of me like a blackhole devouring the entire galaxy.
And now a meaningless creature that i have become as you shine upon others light
i cant help but wonder does that light outshines my entire purpose, my entire existence.
tell me am i nonexistent to your futile existence?!

That Little Hope

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That little hope chases the fame ,
That little hope gives victory to the game.
That little hope heats up the desire,
That little hope is our fire.
That little hope makes us crawl,
That little hope is our cusion when we fall.
That little hope protects the subdued light,
That little hope makes our heart bright.
That little hope keeps us calm,
That little hope changes faith written in our palm.
That little hope is our aim,
That little hope chatches the flame .
That little hope is our inner scream,
That little hope is our fuckin dream.
That little hope drives our ride,
That little hope keeps us alive.

With that little hope a drowning man catches a straw,
And with that little hope a hungry man eats it raw.
If there was no hope it would seize to exist,
With no hope there’s nothin to believe.

That little hope that drives us
That little hope……
That tiny fuckin little hope
Fuckin hope…

COPYRIGHT SAJAN DANGOL 2012.